Okay something just went running across my roof. I SURE HOPE it was on the OUTSIDE and is only like some SQUIRRELS!! Sure sounded bigger than that....

My stomach well higher than my stomach has not been feeling all that great. I do hope it is not a heart thing instead of stomach thing. I take anti-GE reflux medication and it works well. However I have had some funny pains in the same area I had before when I had gallbladder problems. Course I don't have a gallbladder anymore. SO I am not sure. If it continues I guess I should go get checked out. Sometimes I hurt the cartilage around my breastbone due to the SIZE of my boobs and their weight pulling on it especially when I bend over without a bra! Disgusting I know but true. I know I know....why would I ever go without a bra then? Because I have yet to find one that really feels GOOD.

My bras now are about the size of a small child's hat. Need I say more? I remember seeing my grandma's bra when I was little and thinking WOW......it was sooooo big! Well...my bra is right there now too. AND COULD be a hat! NO..TWO hats.

With that being said and to start my day I am off. OBVIOUSLY.

Listening to the birds waking up outside. So nice out. About 49 degrees. Watered my plants on the balcony. It is now 5:00 a.m. Been downtown already to pick up some more work. Now I have to JUST DO IT as the Nike commerical says.

Just brewed some hazelnut coffee...sure smells good. My men are still sleeping.

Nothing much planned for this Memorial weekend. Keith's mother has been dead many years but she was cremated and there is no place to go put any flowers. I am not sure if he has any other family members in gravesites around here he would want to put flowers on or go see. He has never mentioned it. Course Memorial Day is really to remember our fallen heroes from the services I guess. I already have many red/white/blue flag things outside but will probably also hang my real big flag on Monday as well. Maybe we will go cook out somewhere at a park.

Saw a woodpecker in a tree in a hole way down low in the tree yesterday at the park. I never knew them to go in a hole so low to the ground before. I took some pictures of it and a movie. I will have to see if they turn out and post one online.

Later..........

okay so it apparently is QUIZ day!

Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.

How is your soul?(pics)
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Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.

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Orange is your Lightsaber color.
Orange represents energy and enthusiasm. It also
symbolizes strength and endurance. People with
orange lightsabers are curious about life, and
the world around them. Fascination catches them
at every turn, and they are creative enough to
understand life's potential.

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Kim (from 'Kim Possible')

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So...Carrie won Idol. Not too surprising but then again I was thinking Bo would probably win. NEITHER will have anything to worry about however.

I watched "Lost" last night. Was pretty good but then again they did not really tell you a whole lot more than you already knew. Will be interesting to see where they go with this story line.

Been nice and cool. MUCH cooler than the past few weeks. I LOVE it. I wish the entire summer was like this. Nice during the day but not really requiring an air conditioner. COOL at night...just very very pleasant all the time.

man this post is boring.........

Need to get some work done. We were up way too late last night. Dominos Pizza manager called me to talk about a complaint I had filed. Was on the phone way too long and it got later and later.

Okay...enough basic crap. Later.....................

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In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :)

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MUCH MUCH cooler here today. I enjoy the coolness. Everyone was swimming around here the past week or so with temps in the mid to high 90s. Kind of warmer than usual for early May or mid May. Today and tomorrow will only be in the 60s and perhaps rainy. I enjoy days like that. I am not big on intense heat. I like all seasons and summer but the heat can really get to me.

Not much else new. This weather makes me in the mood for Cracker Barrel for breakfast. Maybe I can talk my men into going this morning.

Sipping Hazelnut coffee now.........mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :)

Okay..could this be the dying to self thing? Could it be I lost myself and need to find myself all over again? I think I know who I am now...no...I do know who I am now so I look at it as if I have just changed and am not lost. Oprah talks about finding yourself again...and has had many therapists on about remembering WHO you are and bringing that person back to life. Many women tend to lose themselves in their kids and families and forget WHO THEY ARE. Is that my case? Does or did Oprah ever lose herself? Can you ever really get that old you back again? I know you can make an entirely NEW you. They tell you to start listening to old music you did back in high school, and do things you did back then. I doubt I would have the energy to do the things I used to. I have tried listening to old music and it is weird how that DOES indeed bring back aspects of my old self. You do feel like you go back to the old you ...but it usually only lasts for the length of the song. Is there something to do that is more lasting? hahaha.

I like Oprah but when did she become an expert it seems on EVERYTHING? I don't think her pedestal can get any higher can it? AND I LIKE her a lot and her show too. BUT there are times she gets to me. No one likes a know it all and she comes off that way sometimes. She has a good heart and does a lot for a lot of people but she also tends to not let them forget it. I know sometimes people watch her and wonder just how sincere she really is about things.

I will never forget her show when that teacher who had posed nude was on. She really gave her the 3rd degree. While I am sure it was most everyone's opinion that what the teacher did was disgusting....Oprah just went on and on and on about it. The woman was very uncomfortable and Oprah was so judging.

I don't know why I am going on and on about her. Sorry. Heck who am I apologizing to anyway but myself?

Tom Cruise was on Oprah yesterday. He appears to really be in love with that Katie Holmes. They do make a very cute couple. But he seemed exceptionally happy and it was actually funny to see how he acted on the show about Katie. I half expected him to ask Katie to marry him on the show! I am happy he is so happy. Everyone just seems to like him so much because he is so likeable! He has magnetism I guess they would say.

Okay..work to do. I need to sign off here and get back to it.

Later......

Do you ever feel like the "old" you has died? I look back at pictures of me when I was in my 20s and wonder "who was that?" I seemed like a totally different person back then. I don't recognize myself and don't feel like that person at all anymore. Is this normal? I know I have changed a lot since then...and that is good. However, don't you retain some of your old you even as you grow older and change?

I look back at me on video clips and old pictures and I don't even "connect" with that person. It seems I am looking at someone else and not me. It is very very weird. While I can recall all the things I used to do (I think I can anyway)actually remembering what it "felt" like to be that person is no longer possible for me. I think that is a bit weird. I mean I even remember me in high school and I barely have a connection with that person. I recall things but the connection is not there. I don't feel like that person. Have I changed so drastically over time that the person I was no longer exists? That seems a bit more plausible to me and I am thinking you basically make who you become....so perhaps that old me did indeed die off as this new me developed?

OKAY..did someone CLONE ME OUT THERE??? Where am I? hahahaha.

Brother...too deep for this early in the morning.

It's not easy being green. I like green. I thought I would try green today. Been a trying day. Got some work done...Noah's school work done....and a shower....then off to the cardiologist for Noah's evaluation. He even asked why we were there. Brother...you begin to wonder when the physician themselves ask you that.

Hot today. Already 86. People in the pool. ....staying cool....I am loving my AC.

Me

So much for the continuation of the "ending" of my menses to officially complete that part of my menopause! Seems like it only finally stopped and now it is starting all over again. No wonder I was tired and exhausted and felt soooo sleepy the other night and even wanted to eat more! It all makes sense now.

I am going to water my plants. Been super hot outside ...like in the 90s...for middle MAY that is pretty warm. I think we have another week and then it will get back down to the 70s...more seasonal temps! We have kept our balcony blind outside basically DOWN the last couple of days. I go out and figure why bother putting it up for the night...it will only have to come back down the next day in time for the sun to be blocked. We face west. So...it is still down.

LOTS of work to do. Church today....although I am tired and wouldn't mind sleeping in or resting for a bit. I have bills and paperwork to do today also.

OH...an old Elvis movie I like is coming on at 8:00...It Happened At the World's Fair.

Otherwise...I am sure this sounds boring to about anyone reading it. I need to think of something I can fix for lunch in the crockpot! NO oven or stove today if I can keep from it.

OKay.....signing off to get some coffee and water my plants.