Thursday, November 29, 2007

REVELATION.......I'm not just a collector but a hoarder...packrat......something! OH NO!!!



At least of certain things.....some making no sense at all. AND I realize while this
came somewhat as a revelation to me....it is doubtful it is anything new to my family....as I am sure they knew this all along.

My motto for years was one is nice but 2 is better and 3 well....you have a spare in case you need it!

I have been setting some new goals for myself....and I am filled with such determination finally....FINALLY.....did I say F-I-N-A-L-L-Y????......I am actually accomplishing things I have put off for years.

I set a new goal for me for work as I need to increase my income and reduce my monthly monetary outflow.....and I actually met my goal and pretty easily I might add even with some downtime from work. THIS IS HUGE FOR ME!

I ran some errands during the downtime from work saving me time doing it later....

After work and making Noah some supper I decided to start tackling the hall closet...a project I had never entirely finished. This is a fairly large walk-in closet....and I could not believe all the stuff I had shoved in there. I have to say I have enough candles for a lifetime. WHAT WAS I THINKING??????? And this is after giving away a ton of them last Thanksgiving to my sisters when they came over for dinner. We all sat around after dinner and went through the closet that day too and I let them all take BOXES of candles home with them. NEW candles too.

Tonight when I was looking at some of them I had to wonder what I was thinking when I bought them?? I love candles and occasionally burn a couple.....but the MAGNITUDE of candles I have BOUGHT over the past few years has been incredible to say the least. Now I want to keep a few but just get rid of the others. Especially if I think I will not burn them. I mean I have not burned some of them now. I could probably light up the entire block along the curb with my candles. Somewhere I think I went out of control....duh Melinda do you think??? SELLING the next batch is probably the best idea since they are all very new and nice sets.....yeah....keep the "few" I want and sell the rest.

CONTROL......DISCIPLINE.....new words for me I thought I new the meanings of but I am finding out I did not. I have to admit I LIKE this newly rediscovered sense of control and discipline. I can accomplish ANYTHING when I make up my mind anyway.....anyone who knows me knows this to be true. BUT adding control and discipline in the mix has given me incredible results!

SO....after I pulled all the crap and boxes out of the closet I realized my closet would be basically empty once I go through the closet again and pick out the candles to part with. I had debated on a garage sale but this time of year might not be favorable. I am not sure I would want to mess with EBAY although I could let someone else do it for me for a small fee. SO until the holidays are over or I decide what I am doing for sure.....I sorted and put the boxes back into the closet.

Guess what I discovered??? I had BAGS of BRAND NEW Christmas tins and boxes for gift giving I bought last year after Christmas. This would be great if I ran a gift basket shop or something like that. I mean I have MANY......I did not stop at 1 or 2....I apparently felt the need to buy a FEW of EACH kind they had. And we are talking dozens of different kinds. Holy crap! I apparently lost my mind last year!

Don't get me wrong. I am thankful for my blessings and abundance......but in a way this type of abundance can become very stagnating. SO.....I am going to let some of this stuff go. Guess what my family will be getting gifts in this year??? I have to admit part of me does not want to give them away they are so gorgeous.......but why not? Isn't that what I bought them for?

I think there is something wrong with me! Apparently at that time in my life I was trying to fill a void with THINGS. So NOW what do I do?? haha

I have already taken BAGS of stuff to Goodwill the other day. My bedroom actually looks like a bedroom again! I love that.

Next will be this office area. I may lose my mind for a bit on that project. I am limited in what I can do and there is no sense unpacking more stuff as I will be moving again soon. SO it will call for sorting and deciding what to get rid of and then creative storage and cleaning so I can make this space more functional and appealing to my body, mind, and spirit.

I looked at some of the boxes of crap I moved across country and now I wonder why. SOME of it made no sense. I guess I never took the time with the last few boxes to really sort the stuff figuring I would do it later.

ALSO......I am a catalog freak. While that is okay if you TOSS the catalogs once finished with them.....I NEVER seem to be finished with my catalogs. I have stacks of crap to sort through.

This is exhausting and stifling to my soul and freedom......as all this stuff has been hanging over my head for so long.

PURGING is another new word I have added to my vocabulary. I have to admit it feels good to PURGE and make more space to stretch! This also opens the door for NEW things to fall into my life.

Okay....back to it. My break is over!


AND after talking with someone I love very much.....I have decided to DONATE all this stuff.......to the needy....shelters.....anyplace that have people in need who can use anything I have. After all.....this time of year especially is about giving.....and I love to give.....RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS I love....

This makes me very excited....like a kid all over again....to be able to be in a position where I CAN give these types of things away. Christmas feels very much like Christmas again!

2 comments:

lv2scpbk said...

I know what you mean about being a hoarder and a packrat. I feel I am one of those too. It's hard to give anything up, but I've been wanting to be clutter free too for sometime now. I am going to start a full pledge to do this after the holidays. One room at a time.

I stopped by your site from Melissa's.

Melinda said...

Ah thanks for popping by and saying hi! I am doing well with PURGING......it is very freeing and gratifying.....and I find I won't have so much work maintaining status quo! haha