Sunday, September 02, 2007

Gingerbread tea/suicide...

Okay.......two days now I have enjoyed my favorite for substituting coffee is Gingerbread Spice.....a seasonal tea flavor made by Celestial Seasonings. I was afraid I could only get it at the holiday time......but I can order it direct from Celestial online......guess who is going to be stocking up?


I smelled my bag of coffee I just bought the other day at the store........and to be honest......the smell of the beans for some reason this time did not smell all that great to me. AND this is coming from someone who has loved coffee and has been drinking it since I was like 14 years old. did not smell all that great to me......but the tea did! HUGE progress....even the thought of coffee soured my I naturally avoid anything that would sour my stomach.

NOT having the same amount of caffeine however HAS affected me physically. I have walked around in a daze and have been very sleepy. I do NOT like that but I know I can substitute MOVING my body and even other sources of caffeine if I must to boost my energy again. I realize it is a process and will take some time to make the adjustments. NO incredible caffeine withdrawal headache yet either.........not a real bad anyway.

Today I just found out someone I knew in Colorado.......a very young, confused man named Ben.......committed suicide last week. This has really upset me.....and I wish I could have had a more positive influence in his life.......maybe he would not have chosen to kill himself. Life is so very precious. We tend to think so little of it or even of ourselves. I wish this young man could have had a better chance at life and realized his potential and experience even a glimmer of hope.

We never realize the many ways we might influence someone else's we should strive to make it the most positive we can. I now feel like I have failed somehow with Ben.

If you can any prayers for his family during this time would be greatly appreciated.

Otherwise I hope you all have a great and safe Labor Day Holiday....

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