if

if you really wanted to be with me.....you would already be here
can't you hear me screaming?
this pain is unbearable, it affects everything I say or do
it affects me so I do nothing
i am growing numb
you would not really want me anyway
i do not even want myself
i could care less
i am fooling myself
i feel nothing
i am fooling myself
it is all shit
i am keep telling myself
it is all
it is
was


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